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Jun. 19th, 2008

Text: Talk Nerdy To Me

meme: the soundtrack of your life

Here's how it works.
1. Open your library (iTunes, Winamp, Media Player, iPod, etc)
2. Put it on shuffle
3. Press Play
4. For every question, type the song that's playing; for extra cool points, add descriptions.
5. When you go to a new question, press the next button
6. Don't lie and try to pretend you're cool...

Opening Credits
Party in My Pocket by KingoftheHill

Waking Up
Billie Jean by Chris Cornell

First Day at School
Wake Me Up When September Ends by Green Day

Falling in Love
Nausea by Beck

Fight Song
Dirty Work by Shaw/Blades

Breaking Up
Priority One by DFive9

Bitch - Sevendust

Black by Pearl Jam

Mental Breakdown
Don't Lose My Number by Phil Collins

Kindergarten by Faith No More

Vivica by Jack Off Jill

VooDoo People by The Prodigy

Birth of a Child
Rust In Peace... Polaris by Megadeth

Final Battle
Two Princes by The Spin Doctors

Death Song
Maddening Shroud by Frou Frou

Funeral Song
You Bring Me Joy by Anita Baker

End Credits
Mad World by Michael Andrews (Featuring Gary Jules)

Jun. 14th, 2008

Text: Talk Nerdy To Me

RIP Traci Michaels

My heart is heavy as I post this.
I was just informed that a dear friend from yester-year has passed away today.
He was very visible in the local music community through the late 80's/early 90's, so some of you will definitely be familiar with him.

His name was Traci Michaelz. He was a drummer. He was most notably in the local bands "Champaine" and "Wasted Angel." He eventually moved to Hollywood to continue playing the kind of music that he enjoyed. The musical landscape here had changed quite a bit (aka grunge, and somber tones moved in, and made a real impact on the glam/sleaze rock scene). In Hollywood he was involved in several notable projects including Heart Throb Mob, and most recently The Peppermint Creeps.

I didn't know much about his personal life over the past while, but one thing that I always said in regard to Traci is that he was always true to himself. He didn't follow the trends that a lot of other musicians did back in the day, and that never changed. He didn't compromise what he was trying to convey from my perspective. There may have been some growth, and change, but he stayed true to what he was trying to do the entire way.

Whether I talked with him recently or not he definitely had an impact on my life. There are memories a small group of friends (Traci having been one of them), and I share alone, and I hope that some of those memories can extend a hand of comfort to everyone.

One of Traci's nearest, and dearest was my good friend Ray (who is probably pissed at me for not being in touch). Ray & Traci were like siamese twins back in the day.

I hope you don't mind, but I have to share a memory that always makes me smile, and it's still a story I tell (in more detail than I'll convey here) in present day.

Back when we were all in our late teens/early twenties our little pack of friends went to see Wayne's World together at the movie theater. We were the annoying group in the theater because we were louder than we should have been, and Ray & Traci were causing all kinds of distractions from their seats in front of us girls.

Anyway, through a series of shooshes from other attendees, and laughter from all of us (we were little shits) the crowd was getting more and more peeved by us being there. We probably ruined the movie for many of them.

And then the funniest thing happened (ok, you may not laugh, but it still causes me to crack a smile because it was so loud, and antagonistic). During the car scene where Wayne and his cohorts are listening to Bohemian Rhapsody by Queen, Traci & Ray decided to rewrite the lyrics. Instead of "Mama Mia, Mama Mia, Mama Mia Figaro" the two of them shout out "Gotta Pee-a, Gotta Pee-a, Gotta Pee-a, Let Me Go." So stupidly funny that we all just started cracking up.

I believe, if memory serves correctly, that some jock guys turned around, and tried to get threatening at that point, but didn't get very far.

Anyway, a lot of my favorite memories from back then include those two, and I'll always cherish them. No matter what kind of a person I am today. No matter what happens in the future, or whether I keep in touch the way I should (and mean to) or not, I will always treasure those times.

(Tracy in the center)

Jun. 5th, 2008

Text: Talk Nerdy To Me

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I haven't been here in a while, but I really felt the need to post a message about a friend from yester-year.

I found out today that an old, old friend, Shawn Oliveira passed away last week.
I haven't been close with him since I was a teenager (not incredibly close then to be honest). However, my buddy slinkii /Lisa (who lives in Cali) met him through me back in the day. They became incredibly close, and stayed close over the years.

When I knew him Shawn was in his late teens singing for the band Steel Blue. They played with Cryin' Shame, and a couple of other bands once at the Rockwood Grange (I'd estimate the year was...88-89-ish), and that's where we met. He was the typical musician guy back then (but then again, who wasn't).

Over the years since he's served time in the Air Force, found a deep rooted love for religion, and had become married with children.

slinkii/Lisa informed me several years ago that Shawn had been diagnosed with cancer. It was a rough road for him, but he pulled through, and beat it away
Not too long ago She informed me that the cancer had returned, and spread. The prognosis wasn't good, but of course everyone hopes.

I have been sick with a nasty cold the past few days, and had been avoiding my phone all day (in and out of a nyquil coma) when I finally got up to find out who was calling. It was Lisa. She just returned from a three week vacation with her husband to see his family in England on Sunday. She's been down with a bad sinus infection, so she hadn't been checking her email. She did this morning, and was informed of the memorial services plans then. She'd been trying to call me all day, and I feel awful.

We talked until her phone battery was dying, but I don't know if I helped at all. Actually a lot of the things that I said in an attempt to be comforting sounded like something you'd probably hear on really bad tv. Way on the hammy side. I did try though. And even though I sounded like a dufus I was sincere.

Anyway, though some of you were around, and doing the music scene thing back then I don't know if anyone would remember him. Just in case though, I felt I should share.

Shawn was survived by his wife of approximately 13 years, 3 sons, and a daughter. He was 37.

Thankfully he isn't suffering anymore.

Here's the obituary I found if anyone is curious to know more about him.

Take good care everyone,
x-posted to: My MySpace, and My New Blog</lj>

Sep. 29th, 2006

Breakfast Club: Nerd

A quick update.

Hey all!
Well, I'm moved into the new apartment. Actually I have been for almost 2 weeks now.
This is the first chance I've really had to write anything becauyse I've been going back to the old house to clean A LOT! It's amazing what kinda ick happens when ya smoke indoors in a house where the air doesn't circulate the way it should. In addition there was just so much CRAP. Looking at how much we got rid of versus the amount of space we actually lived in doesn't make any sense whatsoever. :)

Anyhoo, after this weekend we'll be done with the old house, and my time will free up quite a bit.
This is the first time I've gone through this process first hand. Normally, in the past, I found myself in the way more than anything, so I took care of my stuff, and that was that. This time I got a big eye opener with the amount if time, stress, and crap that's involved. I'm living light from now on. ha ha ha

I'll be catching up with everyone once the weekend is over.
I hope you're all doing well.

Sep. 12th, 2006

Fight Club: Oh Snap!


Hey all...
Just a quickie note to let ya know what's up.

I'm in the process of packing/cleaning my house because I'm moving this Saturday. Woo Hoo!
Out of one shit hole and into another (at least the new one's cheaper! tee hee).

We haven't set up the phone at the new place yet. Just haven't had to time to sit down with the bill transfering, and all that fun (yuck) stuff. So for the next little while I am gonna be offline. I won't be able to check email or anything. I just thought you'd like the heads up.

You can still feel free to drop me a note whenever. I just don't make any promises as to when I'll be able to receive it.

Ok, that's all...
I hope you're all doing well. :)

Jun. 19th, 2006

Jay &amp; Bob: Hetero Lifemates

A normal post! :)

Hi all!
I am so sorry I haven't posted in forever. Well, with the exception of the "pity me" post the other day. Sorry. I just needed to vent.

Life has been up and down lately, as always.
I just haven't been into journaling much lately. I think everything's really changed for me in that respect since my Grandpa died in December. I am trying to get back into it, but there's so much back story (sin it'd been like 3 months since I last posted) that I tend to feel overwhelmed. Like I need to post everything here, when in reality I don't have to post anything I don't want. SO rather than go on and on about the mundane stuff I'll just move ahead. :)

I've recently taken up a couple of new hobbies. I've started making jewelry. Right now it's nothing special (well, my niece digs it! ha ha ha), but all I'm making at this point is stuff I want anyway. Mostly just bead sets (necklaces, and bracelets). However, my bestest bud, slinkii/Lisa is the one who got me interested in it, and she just sent me a big ole box full of goodies. Along with beading stuff there was wire, and tools, and a lot of fun things to work with. I haven't really had a chance to work with it much yet, but I'm planning on it either tomorrow or Wednesday.

I've also taken to photography. I'm sooo not a Photographer, but I love trying! My family is already sick of my camera, and I've only had it for about a month! ha ha ha

I've also created, what I hope to be, my final personal site. Aside from my journal, and myspace accounts, this new site is going to be the mainstay for all of my creative posting. It's a gallery site I set up. You can check it out here:
Anicee's Galleries!

I have digital art, photos, web design, my mp3, and more there.
I've been trying to create my portfolio for so long that it's not even funny. I spend countless hours designing it, and by the time I'm done I HATE it, so none of the designs have ever seen the light of day. I decided that a portfolio just wasn't meant to be for me. So a cumfy little gallery site is just peachie!

Aside from that I've been enjoying going to shows again, and it's become a bit more regular for me.
I went to see Kandles At Nine on May 13th. Then I saw Boom Bust on May 27th. I was planning on seeing Kandles At Nine again on June 2nd, but there was some drama regarding the line-up, and they didn't end up playing. I went to see the GnR tribute band, Appetite For Deception on June 9th as well. They were a lot of fun. I'm gonna go see them again on July 8th. After that my buddy nw_photochick/Marie is taking me (as an early Birthday present) to see Information Society on July 29th! I know ya may think it's silly, but I am sooo stoked! She and I went and saw them back in the early 90's together, and just had a blast (and a pretty embarassing moment too), so it'll be fun to go down that road together again. To close out the Summer, on August 25th (my 32nd Birthday) Kandles At Nine is playing at the RnR Pizza!!! I'm so excited! ha ha ha

Ok, well I'm babbling at the moment. I'm gonna stop now.
I hope you're all doing well.
Ciao 4 now...

Jun. 13th, 2006

Gary Oldman: Sad Face

Depressed! Ugh!

Hello everyone...
I know, I know... it's been forever. I suck.
Seriously, it seems as though I may be getting back into the computer thing, so hopefully that will equate to me getting back into journaling here. I'm sorry I haven't been in touch with some of you.

Unfortunately today's post isn't gonna mean much to anyone, but me. I suppose that's the idea behind journaling, then again, this is a semi-public forum, so whatever! ha ha ha

Basically what I am writing here can easily be ignored. I'm in a funk, and by myself, so I am gonna just whine for a minute so that I can get whatever this is, out.

I don't know if it's lack of sun, poor diet, lack of sleep, a combination of all three or what, but I've just become so down all of the sudden. Nothing happened. Not at all. In fact everything was going pretty well today. I went to lunch with my Grandma, and went over to fix her computer (well, help her with a couple of technical issues, but nothing major). We had great conversation, lunch was awesome (Mushroom Swiss Burger @ Red Robin), etc.

I suppose, now that I'm trying to self-analyze a bit it's probably the past few days that have caught up with me. There's some family drama (gee, there's a surprise!) that's been at the forefront of my attention. I thought I was handling it pretty well, but maybe the emotional aspect of it all has just crept up on me.

I dunno...
All I know is that I feel terrible at the moment. I don't have any energy, I feel like I'm on the verge of crying, I don't want to do ANYTHING. I guess it bugs me because it seemingly came from out of nowhere. Kind of like when a cloud slowly covers the sun, ya know? One minute it's bright, and then there's a gradual color change, and everything shifts. Part of me wishes that I would cry. I mean if it's the stress of the past few days then that would be a potential solution, but I can't even do that. I'm just all pent up, and blah!

If I felt like the wrath of my family wouldn't swing down on me I'd fully share the details, but I've been down that road. It's exhausting just thinking about it.

I just wish I could snap out of it. This is one of those bad feelings. Not a normal ick day, but a nasty gray hue cast on everything around me. It just sucks. I think this may be the exact thing that I need to get me back into therapy. In all honesty I totally miss talking with Alexandra. I can't figure out why it's been so hard for me to get back in there. It was so helpful for me. I just wish I could shake this awful feeling. It just feels like I'm being swallowed. I haven't felt this bad in MONTHS!

I do have to say that I'm thankful for the internet at moments like these though. I mean I'm sitting here by myself. I don't really feel like talking on the phone, but the idea of being alone when I feel like this is not fun at all. Having this little outlet makes me feel a little more connected.

Ok, I'll shut up now. I'm gonna go put on a movie, or read, or something.
Sorry to pop on for the first time in what seems like forever, and throw a pity party for myself, but I just had to get it out in the open. It's completely nonsensical, and I apologize to any of you who actually donated time to this pathetic little tirade.

More (less droopy stuff) later...

Mar. 6th, 2006

Text: Talk Nerdy To Me

Bus Accident, Moving Plans, Savannah, etc.

Wow, the last little while has just been busy... well, I guess that's not entirely true. There's just been a lot of planning going on.
Ya see, we're moving to Beaverton in September. Normally when we move we're sooooooo unorganized, and it's a real bitch getting everything done. I've now taken controll of planning, budgeting, etc...and I'm all over it. Planning a couple of garage sales, going through all of our junk, and deciding what to keep and get rid of. We've decided that we're basically getting rid of almost all of our furniture, and we're just gonna start fresh. Our stuff is all pretty old and run down, and we decided that we wanted new stuff. I created a budget for the next few months that will allow us some serious saving opportunities. If all goes well we're gonna have a good handle on finances when it's time to move.

I will state that I was against moving to beaverton initially. That is a driver friendly area. It's a big tech/business community (Nike Campus, Intel, Techtronix, etc). Being a bus rider it's not incredibly practical. However, we found a couple of places on a couple of bus routes that put us in connection with everything. It was tough finding decent places that will accept my dog (Cassie, she's an adorable black lab that basically runs the show around here! ha ha ha). Most of the places have no problem with my Cat (Diva, the name says it all), but we narrowed it down to 5 different places. We went out to see several of them this past weekend.

We started off at Hunters Run. As it turned out that was the only place we saw! I fell in love with the place. It's fantastic! It's located right behind Fred Meyers. There's a couple of resteraunts, a Hollywood Video, and a couple of other things a block away, and it's just gorgeous. It's on this huge walking trail, and there's a pond with a wood bridge, a playground for when my nieces come to visit, great floor plans, etc. I was sold from the word go. We went and talked to the Leasing Agent, and she said they were having an open showing of the Exeter floor plan (the one we want) in April (they're nice places, so they go fast), so we're going to go back and see the apartment for ourselves in a few weeks. If all works out THAT will be my future home. I liked what I saw/read on ForRent.com, but after seeing it for myself, wow. It's just perfect. Oh, and it's across the street from a big aquatic park too. My sister is a big swimmer, so that's perfect. I guess it also has tennis courts, and a skate park. Lots to do. It'll make transitioning from a house to an apartment a lot better having so much to do/see out there.

We're still planning on going to see the other complexes in a couple of weeks, but only as back ups.

Anyway, so we left there with big smiles. All was good until the bus neared our stop. I looked at my mom, and saw her grab the bar, and brace herself. I looked forward and there was a car sliding sideways at us at about 40-45 mph!! I grabbed the bar, and SMASH! It happened so fast, it was all so surreal. As soon as we'd stopped I jumped up, and followed a man off the bus to see if the people in the car were ok. The car was annihilated. There was one man in the car. When I first saw him he was up against the passenger side which was entangled with the front of the bus (by the door). He was bleeding from the head, and shoulder. Initially he was unconscious. The man in front of me was talking (before we got hit) about being a serious hiker, and the lack of medical facilities in certain areas. It was obvious he knew some basics. Thankfully he knew what to do. It was at that moment that I wondered what I would have done had he not been there. I mean I flew off the bus to check on the car, but I don't know jack. All I know is that if someone is conscious to keep them talking, and DON'T move them in case of neck/back injuries. The hiker got into the backseat of the car, and checked the guys pulse. He was saying a couple of things to an onlooker who was on the phone with 911. Then he tried to move the guy!! I was like, "DON'T MOVE HIM! He could have neck or back injuries!!" He stopped, and agreed. The car wasn't on fire or smoking, so we waited for the paramedics, firemen, police. The driver of the car was in and out of consciousness for the next couple of minutes. We both talked to him (the hiker being more prominent, for the record. I was kinda freaked, so I wasn't as helpful as I would have liked to be). He was pretty messed up. After seeing the car I'm surprised he wasn't dead. He wasn't wearing a seatbelt, and I'm pretty sure that his head smashed into the corner of the bus on impact.

When the police came the officer was trying to talk to the guy, and had the hiker get out of the car. The hiker walked up, and said, "That guy stunk of alcohol." After a few minutes when the adrenaline started to fade I was looking around. There were skid marks starting almost a block away on the other side of the street. I'm no driver, but it looked pretty obvious that he lost control at the bend in the road, and locked his brakes. He must have been flyin'. They took him away in an ambulence, and the consensus was that his injuries didn't seem to be fatal (thankfully), but it was so freaky!

I banged my knee, and pulled a muscle in my shoulder, but aside from that everything was fine for everyone on the bus. I actually didn't say anything about either because it wasn't super important. I don't even have a bruise on my knee, so no biggie. We gave statements to Trimet, and the Police, and then walked the block to the Max stop we needed to be at. 20 minutes later we were browsing the setting at Cedar Hills Crossing like nothing had happened. I was shaking like a leaf though, and when we sat down to eat at this awesome little place called "Noodlin'" I just felt horrible that we were behaving as though nothing had happened. It almost seemed like it happened to someone else. It was so bizarre.

Ok, enough of that...next...

At the same time, Adrian & Rayna brought my new niece, Savannah up so we could all meet her. She's totally precious. We visited with them before we headed out to Beaverton. She wasn't even two weeks old, and just so tiny! awwww....ha ha ha

We met them at my Grandma's house so that we could all visit for a bit. It was so nice, but at the same time I was sad. I wished my Grandpa had been there to see her too. It's interesting because I've always been a bit wishy-washy on the whole religion thing, but my Grandpa was steadfast in his beliefs. There were times I actually faked interest because he didn't have anyone to really share with. That seemed to make him happy. I wish I could have believed more, for his sake. However, now that he's gone I KNOW that if there is a Heaven, he's in it. And if he is, then I think he saw her for himself.
I know, it's a bit mushy, but I truly do feel comforted by the idea that he believed strongly enough that if there's any chance that Heaven exists, he was bumped to the head of the line because he made reservations. :)

Oh, and after we left Grandma's we were waiting for the bus, and I ran into Marie/nw_photochick. She was meeting another friend, and they were going shopping. So we chatted for a bit while we waited for the bus. That was fun.

Anyway, this is just shy of being a novel, so I am gonna close for now, but hopefully I'll post a bit more regularly now.
I have a shit-ton of things to do around the house to start preparing for the garage sales, and moving, but I'll definitely be around. :)
More later...

Feb. 23rd, 2006

Knoxville: OMG!

I'm an Aunt (again)

Hello everyone.

Just a quickie post. I know I suck. I just haven't been spending all that much time online lately. When I am on I am trying to play catch up in so many places that I just haven't fallen back into a normal pattern to where I can just sit for a bit, and spend time here. I am working on it, so please don't hate me if you haven't seen me around much lately.

As for the header.. yep..I'm an aunt again.
Savannah Ray was born this morning. She weighed in at 7lbs 15oz, and was 20" long.
I haven't seen her yet (waiting for pictures). It makes it hard when everything happens 300 miles away, ya know? My dad, step-mom, and sister went down to be with my brother and his wife, so they should have pictures when they get back in the next couple of days.

It's so funny because I always assumed I'd be the one with kids. When we were younger I never saw my brother in that situation. Now he has 3 daughters. I figure between my 12 yr old niece, my 3 yr old niece, and now Savannah, not to mention my 14 yr old sister...there's enough kids going around. ha ha ha

Besides, being an aunt/big sister has a lot of perks that parenthood doesn't afford. I can hang out with them with minimal scolding. I can be the "cool" adult, etc. I can also have some selfish time when I need to be moody.

This past weekend my oldest niece, Jessica, was over. We had a shit load of fun. I love having her here. The only suck-ass part of it is when she goes home. It just gets depressing here for a couple of days. Even my dog gets bummed.

I have to catch up on some email, and head off for the night.
More later...

Jan. 3rd, 2006

Jay &amp; Bob: Hetero Lifemates

December Timeline & The Loot

Ok, I know I was gone for the month, but it really was a rough, and crazy month.

Here's how my December - New Year's Day went.

Dec 4th : My Grandpa died.
Dec 8th : Massive toothache
Dec 9th : Emergency Dental Appointment - Tooth pulled
Dec 10th: Caught a nasty bitch of a cold
(while dealing with the horrible pain in my mouth/jaw because the Dentist - while nice - was clueless, and did a shitty job)
Dec 16th: Chaperoned my sister's 14th birthday sleepover (7 kids)
Dec 18th - 23rd: Christmas Shopping Chaos
Dec 24th - 25th: Beautiful Christmas Holiday
Dec 26th - Dec 30th: Decompression from the events of December
Dec 31st: Under-budgeted for the New Years Eve show I was planning on attending, so I read the first half of the book "Jarhead" (trying to get through it so I can move on the the Dave Navarro autobiography that Lisa/slinkii gave me for Christmas), which has been a good read thus far.
Jan 1st : Dad had a flood in his basement/recording studio on the 29th, and was still dealing with it on the weekend due to ground water seepage. All his equipment was moved out, and they had pulled up the carpet, etc, etc, but he needed help moving some of his tools out of the garage, and so on, so we spent the day doing that. I feel so bad for my dad. He's invested so much in his studio, and for Christmas, and to have this happen after all the effort he's put in. It just breaks my heart.

The Loot (aka, what I got for Christmas)

512mb iPod Shuffle
Brat Pack 3pk (The Breakfast Club, Weird Science, 16 Candles)
War of the Worlds
Rocky Horror Picture Show
Devil's Reject's
Fraggle Rock - Doin' Things That Doozers Do
Nikka Costa - Can'tneverdidnothin'
Heart - Dreamboat Annie
Dave Navarro - Don't Try This At Home
FM Radio/Pedometer
Fruity Shower Gel pack

I also got a ton of knick-knacks/stocking stuffers. I got almost 25 (assorted shapes/sizes/colors) post-it note pads (I am a post-it whore), a variety of pens & some mechanical pencils, an electric nail buffer kit, some fun little keychain-type games, brain teasers, crossword books, a funky pet calendar, pocket triva cards, a tire patch kit for my mountain bike, etc.
Oh, and I cannot forget my special kudos to Lisa (who sent me a gazillion things) for remembering from last year. Last year, as stocking stuffers/candy, she sent me a couple of boxes of buttered popcorn Mike & Ikes! Anyone who knows me knows that I dig the buttered popcorn Jelly Bellies. So she sent me the Mike & Ikes. I've NEVER seen them here, but Cali tends to have a lot of stuff we don't have here. So this year, instead of two boxes she sent me...SIX! Sweeeeeeet! Ha ha ha It's all about the little things. :)

Lisa is also responsible for my tree. We haven't had a tree for the past couple of years because money is usually tight, and goes straight to gifts for everyone. Besides I do Christmas at my dads, and he always has a magnificent tree. Lisa got tired of us not having a tree, so she actually sent a table top artificial tree with lights, and a few accessories. Unfortunately money is non-existent at the moment, and my batteries are toast, so I haven't been able to take a picture for her yet. I told my mom that we couldn't take it down until I snapped a picture though, so once I get batteries I'll post a pic or two. :)

Oh yeah...
After Christmas with money I got from Christmas I hit Warehouse Records where they're having a sale. Call me crazy but I love used movies. They're cheap and that's a big deal for me! ha ha ha
So they had a buy 3 get 1 free used DVD sale, and a 3 for $12 VHS sale. I still only have a VHS in my room at the moment, so I still buy them from time to time. Mostly I buy the VHS as a temp version, but it gives me new stuff to watch in my room.
Here's what I got...
Blade: Trinity (DVD)
Mallrats (DVD)
Chasing Amy (DVD)
Fire in the Sky (DVD)
Heat (VHS)
Life or Something Like It (VHS
Sleeping with the Enemy (VHS)

So needless to say, this Holiday season was all about movies for lil ole me. :)

The past little while has been a big fat roller coaster of good & bad. I'm mentally/emotionally exhausted by it all.
So I'm back now, but my schedule's all over the place. I'm totally scattered, so it might be a while before I get back to posting regularly. Hopefully soon though. :)
Just figured I'd post an update.

I hope you all had a wonderful Christmas, and would love to hear about it. :)
Ciao 4 now...

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